My first experience at Coachella

Hello lovelies! So as you can probably guess this post is about me going to Coachella. So what? Right? who cares… I am right there with you! I am not one who enjoys going camping, I don’t really go to concerts and I for sure am not about to spend $800 on a ticket for three days in the dessert. So with that all being said…

I got offered to work a food truck that will be one of the venders at the VIP food area. Apparently this company went last year, they were in the general admissions area and were not too happy with the outcome. They saw much more action and guests purchasing food in the VIP area. This year they decided to try it one more time and have a VIP vender pass instead.

I got offered by my boyfriend who previously worked with the partner of the food truck. With it being my birthday weekend and how excited my boyfriend was to go I felt very obligated to give it a shot. The perks are I will be getting paid, I can enjoy some music while working, it’s an experience and they were paying for lodging. Seems pretty decent I think? Now that Coachella is a day away I am starting to question my decision. I have never been the greatest at making quick friends. I will be having to share the RV (lodging) with 5 other people. People who I don’t know! Literally I don’t even know their names! Also, what if I don’t like it? What if all I want to go is go home and lay in my own bed with my puppy? What happens if I have to take a dump?! I for sure as hell am not doing it on a tiny RV bathroom with 5 strangers who I don’t know! What if I can’t sleep? I have always had a problem with falling asleep and I especially have a hard time if it’s not my own bed or a comfortable place that I am used to.

With all these worries running through my head of course as you can assume I have serious anxiety. My boyfriend is so excited and I don’t want to ruin the trip for him so I am going to try and keep the positive vibes and be as optimistic as possible. I will keep you all updated as I am very excited to build some content on the free time that we will have after our 6 hour shift. If you have any advice at all please comment below! I would love to hear your thoughts or experiences if you’ve ever felt anxious about a trip with strangers.

XOXO

I will keep you updated!

 

How to find your perfect Maxi Dress

Recently I have been helping my older sister find a couple different looks for her engagement photos. While shopping online can be brutally frustrating with the different sizing, price points, and material here are a few of my go to summer dress sites!

 

Asos: Kind of the style of edgy meets girl next door, they have a big range of items and styles.

Asos

Boohoo: Boohoo reminds me of a sorority sister shop, the style is a tad funky but I usually look at their short dresses with the simple prints, good price point as well.

Boohoo

Missguided: If you are looking for the perfect bridesmaid dress or maxi to wear to an event Missguided is perfect for you!

Missguided

Lulus: As most of us know this is where we are shop for our go to dresses, although their dresses are amazing I often shop their sale section for my Maxi’s due to the crazy high prices I can find some real gems in the sale category.

Lulus

Fashion Union: Similar styles to Zara just with half the price! Different designs with a vintage sort of style feel. Great price point!

Fashion Union

C/MEO: Edgy with a girly aspect, they are not afraid to throw in an extra ruffle or two but they also have other option for a more minimalistic style as well.

C/MEO

I hope this post helps you find your perfect Maxi for the Spring and Summer! Comment a pic of you wearing your new maxi! I am always down for feed back!

xoxo, until next time 🙂

life in front of the lens

I am 5’2”, my skin has a lot of discoloration from acne scaring.

I have never thought of myself as a model or even imagined that anyone would even be interested. When I started styling I was very envious of the models, they were beautiful without any make up, stood a foot taller than me and got to get dressed up and done up like they were a barbie doll. Who wouldn’t enjoy that?!

I recently got asked to model for a photographer that was looking for a specific look. He contacted me through instagram and asked if I would model for him. I immediately started laughing. A few days went by and I thought about it more and decided to go for it, what can it hurt? I was very detailed in my response to the photographer that I was NOT a model and that I did not have any experience and that I would need a lot of direction from him. His history was wedding photography so I felt pretty comfortable with him being able to give me direction.

The shoot day finally comes, I am a nervous wreck. I had so many thoughts running through my head.

What if I look bad in every photo? What if he can see my acne scaring through the lens? What if I put too much make up on? What if he doesn’t like the posing? What if I look awkward? What if a ton of people are around and start laughing at me?

We decided to do two different looks, the location was a park in the hills of Los Angeles. Thank god it was a chilly day because there weren’t too many people at the park this day. I stood in front of the lens and froze. I took a deep breath and started to slowly move the way the girls on America’s Next Top Model do. I had researched a few Youtube videos before the shoot as well. I tried to block everything out. The embarrassment that I got when people walked by, the uncomfortable posing, the voices in my head with all the ‘What if’s’ and told myself that I need to act confident and stay focused on the posing. The photographer was shocked. After shooting for 4-5 minutes the photographer was so impressed with my ability to pose he asked again “are you sure you haven’t thought about modeling before? You are posing better than some of the models I have shot before?”. We continued the shoot for an hour or so and I got more and more comfortable as the shoot went on. I didn’t realize how much thought goes on when you are posing, you have to worry about where your hands are placed, how far apart your feet are, what type of smile to have, fake laugh, look up, down, to the side, up and to the side. He showed me some photos that he had captured, we got excited for the edits and then went our separate ways.

I am writing about this story because there are so many reasons that we make up in our heads for us to not do something because we are in fear or not confident in ourselves. This is all about getting out of your comfort zone and owning your self beauty. Don’t get me wrong, I felt embarrassed when people were starring and looking at us, I was uncomfortable and worried about what the people passing by were thinking but I was more focused on making sure my hands weren’t in a funny position and my smile wasn’t too cheesy that the people around us were far in the back of my head. Once the edits came in I couldn’t of been happier, yes, there are some photos that I think I could have posed better, not bent my leg a certain way or smiled less, but these are all a learning process. I can’t be perfect the first time I try something new, although we all wish we could be at times.

Overall I am proud of myself for getting out there and getting completely out of my comfort zone. I have stepped my foot into a different pond and I am excited to see where it takes me, and maybe it doesn’t take me anywhere but at least it is a new experience where I can grow more as an artist and have a better perception as to what these models  go through on set. It may look so glamorous but at the end of the day we all have insecurities and fears and it’s nice to step out of our boundaries at times.

I would love to hear about your experience in front of the camera for the first time! Did you feel the same way I felt? Did posing come naturally to you?

Swimwear is on its way!

It is almost my favorite time of year!! Swimsuit season!! I know, I know it’s a little cliche, however it’s not all about prancing around in a two piece bikini, it’s about embracing your body as is and enjoying the sand in your toes, sunkissed skin (always use SPF) and ocean waves!

Not only is swimsuit season the greatest but with this comes daylight savings…which means longer days and more natural sunlight! I am going to share a few links of some of my most anticipated swimwear trends this seasons! Yay! So excited!!!

So, I don’t usually spend too much on my swimwear because it is more than likely going to be out of season next year, not fit, or be dull from the sunlight. Also, I can’t grasp my head around spending $300 plus on a bikini that is wayyyyyy less fabric than my premium denim hand washed designer flared jeans (insert rolling eye emoji here).

With swimwear…means sunlight, protection is always my number one, some of my favorite summer products are Balibody and the Rose Hibiscus coconut hydrating face mist!

Here are a few:

https://www.noraswimwear.com/pages/mix-and-match-1

Whitefoxboutique.com

Meshki.com

Showpo.com

Sexy in Silk

The further that this trend goes the more and more I absolutely love everything about it! I am definitely one who pushes limits on scandalous attire, which is probably the main reason why I love this trend so much. I love the way the silk attaches to the skin and gives a subtle shine. Also, who doesn’t like stepping out into the world with their PJ’s still on?

My boyfriend and I try to travel to different places in Los Angeles as much as we can. Since we are on completely opposite times with our jobs (he is 9-5pm and I am in the restaurant industry) we only have Mondays together. This monday we choose to hit up Long Beach and check out the Port of Long Beach (which if you haven’t done so I highly recommend it from the sunset). I choose to wear a olive green slip from Urban Outfitters that has a tiny little lace around the top bust area, the top on the slip has tiny little straps which enhances the collarbone and chest. I paired it with a black mini skirt with gold zippers for pockets that I got from Zara. I just got this new silky silver/white trench from Nasty Gal in December and I absolutely love to wear it on a night out. It brightens up the dark colors underneath without making too much of a statement but bold enough to make people turn their heads.Basically, i’m obsessed. For footwear I wore just basic black shiny pumps from Nasty Gal so that the skin on the foot is still showing, I love showing ankle, i’ve always thought it is sexy and sleek. With my jewelry I wore my Aunt’s vintage yellow gold choker that has a white stone pendant in the middle (bringing in color from the silky trench). On my ears I was wearing the Conch Cuff from Loren Stewart and their disk door knocker earrings.

Thanks for joining in! Would love to hear your comments!